Some days… Medical Marijuana, lets legalize it!

Some days are hard to start, others hard to end.

This is my other related post.

I don’t know where I am at these days, somethings I look forward to greatly others, I find so frustrating making everything so much more difficult.  When you start out it is just a small hill, before you know it you are tackling a mountain.

I don’t and never really did start out to tackle mountains, although I do seem to end up at their feet.  They chew me up spit me out, and when that happens I just pray that the Piton will hold for the next climber.

Life is about getting knocked down.

It is also about getting up.

Some mountains get pulled out from under you, even though you know you’d have made it all the way to the top twice over.

It is knowing that that keeps a girl going.

One of the mountains I am climbing right now if you haven’t been following my blog, is gaining access for Medical Doctors to prescribe legally medical marijuana aka cannabis.

I don’t seem to tackle only one thing at a time but this is the one thing that I am speaking about.

You see I met this beautiful little girl.  She has eyes as big as saucers, she can light up a room with one look. When those eyes shut off.. your heart steps off a cliff…

Walking away from Haley’s eyes is something you don’t do.

There hasn’t been much home for Haley, she’s gone through a lot with her sister and her parents.

She is currently having some welcome success with a GW Pharmaceutical trial, although her success is not as great as others.  This trial utilizes a High CBD nearly no THC oil in it’s medicine.

She isn’t alone.  The possibilities do not end there.. The next best hope is a CBD higher THC oil.  Many people respond better to this.  Right now in our wonderful United States of America this is access is not yet available for her although it has been legalized.  Bureaucratic night mares prevent this from becoming a reality at the moment.

Her gorgeous mother Jill sat across the table from me for two weeks.  When she first mentioned this I thought I must be hearing her wrong.  I must not be understanding what she is talking about, how could she be asking to give this to her child.  I’d grown up as a child of the 80’s in the most successful era of drug use prevention.  They say that, although I am one of the few people I know who never tried any of them.

People with holier that though attitudes still tout the bravado of the 80’s.. now people are so far of track using every type of “drain cleaner” for the latest high that there is a real fear of allowing people to use something we were all taught was so dangerous.

Put into perspective that people are being prescribed medications made of Agent Orange now, Methamphetamine, and other horrible compounds regularly.  Once you realize that these are available legal prescriptions that companies in this country are making money off of doctors prescribing.  Once you understand that kids to adults are being prescribed combinations of medications by the handfuls with no known interaction statistics..

There are already risks being taken to try and save their lives, brain surgery, stint insertion, removal of parts of the brain, and other smaller procedures.  None of it is working for so many!

Then there are people like me..  things are sort of working.. I suppose..  but many of us wouldn’t be sad if we didn’t wake up.

It isn’t that we don’t have good things going on, we’ve just accepted the facts, that our lives make everyone’s life harder, our families struggle around us, we can only do so much on our own, a pitiful portion of what we were able to do.  Our lives laid out ahead of us with the writing on the wall.  Even communication is a struggle.  You want life to be like it was or more like it was.  But it still crumbles around you.  Your own body seems to start the fall.

So people like us.  Broken People in the United States of America and the world are waking up.  Do we know that this will help me?  NO!  But what we do know it is helping many other people, and has been helping many other people silently in the illegal shadows.

When it becomes legal more forms of marijuana can be utilized such as oil. That is what Haley’s parents want her to have legal access to.  What good is it to have illegal access when you live in fear of prosecution, your child being taken from you, or you being jailed for providing a non legal opportunity for her to heal.

When your husband starts talking about giving up all he’s worked for in his career and his only hope of being able to retire at some point?  Or does he just send you off to some other state for you to live so you can be well.  Or should he just suggest that you stay and watch you die a little more each day, and a piece of him along with it?

What do you do? When where you live isn’t good for you?

You try to change things.  You park your feet at the base of another mountain.  They don’t get smaller they get bigger.  But it doesn’t mean you stop trying!

Haley doesn’t live in Nebraska.  But she does live in the United States of America.  Thankfully some brave United States Senators have started this process.  Here is a link to the Bill that could very well be one of the most important pieces of legislation in recent U.S. history.    Learn more about what this law would mean.

In our own Nebraska.. brave Nebraska State Senators are coming forward to save lives with the Compassion and Care Act.  We don’t need to wait, we many avenues for achieving legal access, each one needed necessary and important for so many people’s well being.

When you go to sleep wondering if you will wake up in the middle of the night not being able to move, or in so much pain you can’t move. You wake up in the morning and you can’t see, you struggle to get ready, to do something at least this day.

Staying down is not an option.

You are back at it climbing that mountain.  Each day a new obstacle, each breath a new prayer.  Each mother dropping tears as they hold their clenching child in their arms struggling to bear the weight of it all.  The fathers and husbands who do their best to pretend it is all going ok, so they can provide for another day.

Haley and I are not the only one’s that I know that would greatly benefit from access to medical marijuana.  Deliah, Amber, Amber, Kelley, Carol, Julie, Paula, Sara, Brian, McKenna, Brittney, Rebecca, Jamie, and so many more that come to mind but I haven’t listed.  These are people that I personally know.  These are people that need better options.

Creating change for myself is fabulous, but without the company of others and bettering this world for others, I don’t think I’d be up to the task of climbing this mountain.  Knowing that there is something to hope for makes each day worth while.

This is a selfie of Jamie and I.  Jamie is blind, he is also an advocate for medical marijuana.  We were both pretty tired midway through the 10 hours.

My testifying buddy. We’ve sat by each other twice now to testify in Nebraska for Medical Marijuana.


March 6, 2015  Nebraska Judiciary Committee 2015
Thank you to each of you for listening.

My name is Tonja Peterson-Wendt I am attempting to work as a small business owner, suffering from a Traumatic Brain Injury, Intractable Hemiplegic Migraines, Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, and MTHFR.  I have access to current prescription medications that my doctor thinks may offer benefits, however, none of these have solved the issues I have and at their very best they do a poor job of controlling the pain, migraines, and other physical disabilities.  One of my doctors, my pain management doctor is highly in favor of me going to Colorado to use Medical Marijuana, the other is a physicians assistant at a family practice clinic, when asked just turned and walked out the door after saying she did not choose to take those classes even though they were offered at her continuing education classes and said I should go see a different doctor. The stereo types are still prevalent preventing education in the medical community.

I desire access to Medical Marijuana INSIDE the State of Nebraska where I live and my husband lives with me and works as a professional firefighter. The issues that I deal with do fall well within the realm of issues that Medical Cannabis does help.  Hemiplegic Migraines are like Epilepsy, Strokes and the worst Migraines you can imagine combined.  They offer a person the chance of paralyzation, coma, and stroke, not to mention difficulty seeing, walking, talking, and hanging on to things.. they can cause permanent damage just like Epilepsy and Strokes where regular migraines do not.  Most of these things are temporary lasting a few minutes to hours to days..  Many of mine last days.. 5 days this week, 9 days a few weeks ago, with more spread out in between.

The nasty side effects of the current prescribed medications that I deal with have led me to look for alternatives. Prescription medication can land me in the hospital, and I struggle with the side effects of prescriptions daily as I manage my care.

I would like the access to this life helping plant to be reasonably priced, safe and consistent which I believe means being able to grow and make my own medications based on the strains and blends that help me. I have heard of an underground medication system that many have used silently for years fearing prosecution, while desiring to live a life that allows them to work and live in a reasonable way mitigating their pain, illnesses, and dysfunctions. 

 Why should I and my husband who is a civil servant helping other people in their greatest times of need have to risk jail time, legal fee’s and the humiliation of trying to save myself from unbearable pain agony and soul sucking, life crushing stigma’s associated with a plant that God put on this earth that people like me can benefit from.

Would you be willing to risk the loss of your freedom or your spouses for potential relief from pain, as a trade off to living a better quality of life, or as a trade off to actually being able to work a regular amount of hours, or smile and have a coherent conversation? Not to mention abating seizures, strokes, and possible paralization and death.

Make no mistake that I am not alone in my request for you to consider this option. The countless persons both children and adults with Epilepsy, the Muscular Dis-trophy, Multiple Sclerosis, Traumatic Brain Injuries, Ehlers Danlos, Cancers, Dementia, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder… My mother died in our home on hospice of Pancreatic Cancer what would this have meant to her quality of life and care I often ask myself.  I am not a stranger to suffering.

In some cases CBD alone has proven to help, in many other cases THC is a needed component of relief.

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Life is full of Possibilities!
Tonja and Duke

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